I know all your favourite songs.

Okay, so someone said the sweetest thing to me today. I don't really remember the exact words, but it went something like:

"Sometimes, I wish you would pay more attention to my favourite songs, because the lyrics they sing are all of the words I wish I could find to tell you"

Alright, so thinking over it, it kind of sounds like something that should be on a bumper sticker. But I assure you - it was very, very sweet!

So, lesson of the day - music rocks.

Peace and Love

Dance like no one's watching.

Dance like no one's watching, BLOG LIKE NO ONE'S READING!

Sometimes I totally forget that people read this. Which is good, I know - because this is like reading into my diary.

I'd be a bit concerned if my diaries from 1998 to 2005 were published on the internet though - I used much simpler means of expressing my feelings. Like drawings and "I Heart ...." in the corner of the pages. I think it was the only space where I could just be immature, fragile and whimsical and no one could judge it - because even then I couldn't STAND the fact that teenage girls are just so ridiculously dependent. Like that annoying little side I needed to express, but just wanted to suppress more than anything!

But one of my best friends at the time actually found my diary, opened it and read about half of it before I found out what she was reading. I acted like I didn't care but HOLY CRAP, I was so angry. I didn't write in a diary again, until I discovered blogging.

Rest assured my blogging style is much different - but it's completely open and honest, and I'm really quite pleased with how it's all going.

Peace and Love.

Distracted.

Isn't it funny when someone in your life can become so much more significant in the space of a few days. When they can drive you to distraction from almost every thing else around you, just because you want to get to know every little thing about them, and they want to know every little thing about you.

I'm not sure if it happens with anyone else, but it happens with me a fair bit - I think I tend to be pretty guarded, and can know someone for a while, and not really know them until they let their guard down too.

Not just in the lovey-dovey-mushy way, but more importantly, in friendship. Having good friends and really 'knowing' them is so important to me. Letting down my guard is the best thing I've ever done for myself in that respect. I want to feel comfortable talking about the good, bad and ugly stuff with my friends without thinking they're going to judge me!! Really, we're I'm at right now with the nature of my friendships is exponentially better than high school. A lot of my friends are the same - we just connect on a better level, to put it lamely.

To be honest though, I think I'm changing. I'm working on the whole 'Fearless' thing, in both the friendship and 'extra special' friendship stakes. And it's scary - but I really, really like it.

Peace and Love.

An amazing story.

Did Ben Kweller crawl into my head and make my dreams into song?

We've been in the rain

We've been on the mountain

We've been round the fire

In fancy hotels

Drank water from farm wells

We sang with the choir

I kissed your dry lips

We jumped off the high cliffs

And splashed down below

Skin to skin

In the salty river

Made love in the shadow

Woooah ooh

Read books to each other

Read the mind of the other

Flew one thousand (jets?)

We laughed and we cried

At movies and real life

In our ridiculous beds

We danced in the moonlight at midnight

We pressed against back doors and wooden floors

And you never faked it

And frequently

We ignored our love

But we could never mistake it

Oooh ooh

We met on the front porch

Fell in love on the phone

Without the physical wreck

You gave me the necklace

That used to hang

Around your mothers neck

We questioned religions

Fed bread to the pigeons

We learned how to pray

We stood by the ocean

Turned our hearts in to one

We laid in bed all day

Heeey

We skipped on the sidewalk

Skipped stones on the water

We skipped town

We've seen the sunrise with new eyes

We've seen the damage of gossip and true lies

We've seen the sun go down

Had passionate makeouts

And passionate freakouts

We built this world of our own

It was in the back of a taxi

When you told me you loved me

And that I wasnt alone

My favourite Ben Kweller song. And justifiably so.

Peace and (magic, lyrical, beautiful, honest and real) love

Fearless.

I find it really hard to be interesting sometimes. But what's the difference between that and scandalous? In my mind, it's hard to draw the line.

I don't think my concience could handle being interesting, in that sense.

I think the idea of being interesting is based alot around the idea of being fearless. Throwing your heart, body and mind on the line and facing the consequences - coming out the end with a story to tell.

I think I may have to work on being 'Fearless'. But then, maybe it's more about the people that make you feel Fearless? More specifically, the person that makes you feel fearless.

Because in the end, I suppose that being fearless isn't about not being afraid, or not having a concience - it's about being completely terrified and scared of the consequences....but jumping anyway.

"To me fearless is not the absence of fear, it's not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts, lots of them, To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. Fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's Fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, i think it's fearless to stop believing them. it's Fearless to say"you're NOT sorry" , and walk away.i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. letting go is fearless. Then moving on and being alright... that's fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it, you have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why i write these
somgs. Because love is Fearless." ---- Taylor Swift


Gosh she's an insightful one.

Peace and Love

The back-up girl.

I always feel second rate.

Your opinion doesn't register.

I'm just a girl.

Although I've always tried, I've never truly been able to write down my emotions as I experience them. It's far too heart-wrenching, whether it's something good or bad. I think that's why we have music. Music is greatly under-appreciated by intelligent people, I've found. But to all those talented lyricists out there, let it be known that Emily Clark thinks you're wonderful.

Particularly, Taylor Swift. I swear, this girl is so brave. She throws her heart on the line for our listening pleasure. It's uncomplicated, sure, but in this case, simple really works. I don't think males will understand it, nor do I really want them too. I don't think pretentious women will either, who think they're above it all. But I'm telling you now. Listen to any song on a Taylor Swift album; I've felt that emotion - I've been there.

I want to share with you, a few of my favourite gems. Acutally, alot of my favourites. This may possibly be the lamest thing I will ever take you through, but lame is what I do well, so I'll just continue playing to my strengths. Who knows, this may be a nice soul-bearing exercise.

Okay - so the first. It's called "A place in this world". This song should probably be my theme song, but there's a bit that kind of sums it all up:

"I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know,
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on.
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world"

It speaks for itself.

This one is, I think, my latest favourite. That feeling you get when someone sweeps you off your feet, just by being them. The way you can feel completely comfortable as yourself with them, that you can just go along for the ride. I wouldn't call it love, nor infatuation. But it is special. The song is called "Crazier".

"I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
'Til you open the door
And there's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was tryin to fly
But I couldnt find wings
But you came along and you changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like I'm fallin' and I, am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier"

Anyone who knows me, knows that my family is the most important thing in the world to me. I count myself a very lucky girl to be blessed with such a loving mother, father, aunty, uncle, sister, grandparents and cousins.... But my mum is so wonderful. I love her to death. This one reminds me of our bond, and it's called "The best day".

"And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today"

This is a song that I think I listen to every day. It was the first TS song I ever heard, that was in November 2006. I didn't really connect with it so much as I connect with it now, but it really is amazing. For me, it's the soundtrack to my days, because it reminds me of how special the people in my life really are. It's called "I'm only me when I'm with you". And it's so true.

"Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are painting pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side

And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to
Let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you"

The last, describes I feeling I think most girls have had from time to time - it's called, "You belong with me". I think it describes a fair portion of my emotion in high school, as juvenile as it is!

"Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find,
that what you're looking for has been here the whole time.
Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you,
'Been here all along, so why can't you see,
You belong with me"

There are so many others. But these are the only one's I'm going to share today. Can you tell I've been listening to Taylor all afternoon?

Peace and Love.

Again, Again.

I like posting about things that make me happy. So here’s 5 things that made me happy this morning.

1. Having a seat on the train for the first time in 3 weeks. I don’t mind standing, but sitting makes me extra happy.
2. Getting a free coffee from Starbucks, for “being friendly”.
3. The rad new buskers that stand outside the entrance to King George Square bus terminal. Their music is funky!
4. Having the opportunity to wear my favourite salmon snake-skin heels. The kids over there at Betts really know how to make feet look sexy.
5. Receiving a lovely text message from a fond friend, for no reason at all but to say “You’re a wonderful person, Emily”.

I've decided I need to post about my dreams. I have wacky dreams. But that's for another time.

Peace and Love

New favourite.

I love, love, love Jessica Marais from 'Packed to the Rafters'. I think she is absolutely brilliant.

I'm calling it now - she'll be snapped up by Hollywood in no time.

But really, that show can do no wrong at the moment. Jessica though, a clear winner. See you on the big screen!

Peace and Love

Don't go there.

Have you ever had anyone tell you about that one person they know who is an absolute player, and to stay away?

Have you ever met that person and fallen for their wonderfully genuine exterior, good conversation and the way he makes you feel like the most important person in the world?

Have you ever found yourself reviewing the evidence, only to realise within yourself that he really is a player?

But, maybe people have it wrong....perhaps he is in love with being in love? Is that so bad?

Peace and Love